de bi t ch. [Happiness is a journey, not a destination.]

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

so this is it. finally. *heave a sigh of relief*

well do have mixed feelings. but this feeling is more of the i-know-this-is-it kind of feeling. i never felt this way ever since i knew you. it's a pity that things turned out the way it did. but nonetheless i believe that there's always a reason for things to happen. and the more i think abt it, the more i know that this is the best for us.

no one seems to understand how much this friendship means to me. they keep thinking that i'm some jealous freak, who still likes you so much. OH PLEASE. i think i know my feelings more than anyone else. and i just need you to believe me. that i'm acting the way i have been the past weeks is cos i'm losing a dear friend of mine. and i hope you understand. it's not just any friend. i'm sure you'll feel that same won't you? i know how much he can be annoying and disliked, but just take it that he was really almost always there for me whenever i needed him. he was always my listening ear, my shoulder to cry on. all just as a friend.

a friend. that i truly did treasure alot. and now i'm ready to let go this friendship for the betterman of not just you or me but everyone else. you have said too much hurtful things (i know i have done the same) but still.

i really pray hard that this is it. cos though you were my closest friend, you did cause hell of alot chaos in my life the past 2 years. not that it's solely your fault (again i STRESS that nothing is solely someone's fault; it always take 2 hands to clap). but you did make my life messed up. i don't blame you cos i did learn.

good luck to you and her. honestly i believe you. was just taking the piss. i think i know you well enough to know certain things. i hope you and her will work out. and i really don't want to see you. really mean it man. so please stay away and quit being so annoying la. omg.

take care and GOOD RIDDANCE! hehehe. :P

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